What is that?

Frannie: Our last family photo in 2007.

Football is hardly ever on at my house, but I turned it onto “Thursday Night Football” for some reason.  The announcers were talking about the team supporting Cancer and my boy asked  “What is that?”    Hmm.  I wasn’t sure how I was going to respond.   I could have said:

I would have just said “OK Google:  What is cancer” and she would have read something like:

“Cancer is the uncontrolled growth of abnormal cells in the body. Cancer develops when the body’s normal control mechanism stops working. Old cells do not die and instead grow out of control, forming new, abnormal cells. These extra cells may form a mass of tissue, called a tumor. Some cancers, such as leukemia, do not form tumors.”

https://www.cancercenter.com/what-is-cancer

I didn’t do that, but I did say something like

“It is something that happens in your body where your cells in your body get sick and it ends up taking your life.”

I told him that is how his Grandma Watson (My mom) passed away.  Unfortunately, she passed away in 2007, many years before he was born.

Even though I have had several people near me experience cancer, such as Leukemia, Skin Cancer, Cervical Cancer, Brain Tumors, Colon Cancer, etc.  I still feel like I’m pretty uneducated about it.   It’s something I see in the news daily.  Reading the obituaries and stories about people of all ages dealing with it is heart breaking. When a child is involved it is even worse!

A few days after the football game, we saw a St. Jude Children’s Hospital commercial and he wanted to know if that is where people go with cancer.  I don’t know much about St. Jude, but a quick search has revealed that it is a very good place. They do a lot of research on cancer and are dedicated to help children with cancer. If you want to check it out here is a link: https://www.stjude.org/

When my mother was battling her cancer she was the recipient of many units of blood. There were surgeries that required blood or times when she just needed it for some reason or another. I made it a goal of mine to try and donate as often as I could. I have recently been unable to due to some blood pressure issues, but hopefully I will be able again soon. If you can donate, I encourage you to go out and donate. If you can’t, encourage those around you who can. You can learn more here: RedCross. I have also signed up with Be The Match to see if I can help someone. It’s been over 8 years since I’ve done it and I haven’t heard anything.

I definitely need to learn more and help my son learn more. I found this cool site on the St. Jude website where you can send Halloween Jokes to the children of St. Jude. It sounds like fun!

60th birthday party a week before she passed.

I wish I was never…

“I wish I was never born”..

I wish I was never born” are the words that came out of his mouth. He was angry but it still hurt my feelings. If he only knew what he was saying. We say a lot of things when we are angry, but do we really mean them? I started to imagine my life without this little boy and it scared me!

I started to think about those moments in my life that I like to call the “What if?” moments. What if they never happened? I feel like, I have grown from each crazy/tragic event in my life.

One event that comes to mind is my father’s death. There is nothing worse than having your patent(s) get hurt or pass away. My… Our world was turned upside down. I believe I was in shock for months after. I believe my life was changed for the better on that day. I love my dad to the core, but I believe it helped me realize that I needed a change. I feel a bit guilty that my life is better now.

Another event is my son’s birth. Someone made a huge sacrifice to help our family grow. Seeing his birth was amazing. I can’t imagine what life would be like if he was “never born”.   I wouldn’t change this for the world. My son’s birth mother may not be making the best choices in her life, but I still hold a special place in my heart for her.

I know this isn’t going to be the last time he says something like this. How I respond to it is going to be the key. I hope I can handle it.

Utah County Jail Inmate List

The Utah County Jail has a site where you can see who is currently in Jail. In the past, I coded up a web scraper that I used to pull data from the site and make it easier to maneuver and pull out interesting data. Over the years, people have used the data/images from the inmate sites in inappropriate ways. It’s made it harder to get this data. I still have a scraper running and I pull the data I can from their site. They have an Active Inmate List that I get data from. I don’t feel like i’m doing anything unethical with the data and it’s interesting to see. I have plans to link an inmate with a news article.

Check out uc.iwatson.net